9. DAILY MUSINGS DURING PANDEMIC COVID 19 -- ALMOST NORMAL

3.25.20  NIGHT THOUGHTS:  I've been feeling so isolated from my family and unsure how best to reach out -- not wanting to bug them, to pry, to be all helicopter-mom-ish.  I just want to know what's up with them, what they are doing, how they are feeling (not just physically).  It's hard to know how to parent adult children sometimes.  But I had a long and helpful talk with one of my sons and I feel better, for now.

I also did a hilarious trial run on Zoom with some friends and we are sort of hopelessly inept at this tech stuff, but we are trainable.

Hub and I took a sunshine filled walk along the Marina route we love.  I wrote a blog post.  I paid some bills.  I continued to set up my yoga space at home.  We ate a great veggies and mussels dinner and watched the last episode of the series "What's Eating America" about the intersection of food and American life.

I laughed; loved the slow pace of the day; loved hanging out with Hub.  I was not anxious -- the first day in weeks that I have held my anxiety at bay, after a significant bout of fear last night. (I found out someone close to me has the virus -- is doing well, with none of the terrible symptoms, but still...)

This is how it will go I guess.  Up and down and up and...looking for equilibrium.  Grateful for every pause that feels almost normal.

At least, that's the view from here...©