1. DAILY MUSINGS DURING PANDEMIC COVID 19--I BEGIN

I'm going to include my daily Facebook posts here; a history of this historical moment.  The coronavirus, Covid-19 struck here in January.  The very first confirmed case in the U.S. was hospitalized in our town.  The current Administration has been slow to respond, downplaying the seriousness of this illness, and has continued to mismanage at every turn.  Our governor, on the other hand, has shown real leadership and has aggressively and earlier than most closed schools, limited gatherings, and likely will soon issue a "stay at home" order to keep citizens inside unless for essential business (groceries, medication, some workers).

These blog posts may last longer than Facebook since I also publish my blogs into books at the end of each year.  Here goes, for whoever is interested in my musings...maybe descendants who will come after?
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3.17.20  MORNING THOUGHTS:  Mornings are the hardest.  I was home alone all last week, and thought that was why I woke up feeling lonely and anxious.

But Hub's been back since Sunday and I still wake up sad.  These are hard times for all of us and especially so for many of us who like a future that feels solid and at least slightly predictable.   These topsy turvy ever-changing days filled with uncertainty are hard.

This morning another announcement of another of my healing spaces, in addition to my beloved yoga studio is closed -- now the lovely place I go for massage every 6 weeks.  We are finding out that really our own self-care practices must sustain us now, along with the family we are hunkering down with, the social circles we hopefully still can access via phone, text, email, or social media, the view from our windows, the stroll around the yard, or planing the spring garden.

We have our Grandgirls with us this week, who provide an "innocent of all this drama" distraction.  With schools closed, they are here 24/7 while their parents are traveling in the U.K. (bad timing for a long-awaited and planned for trip; I worry.)  We have family movie night every night and try to keep their days busy with activities and outings.

Today they are both massively excited to decorate the house for Hub's BD party  which will be just the 4 of us as we've cancelled a larger celebration.  It will be sweet nonetheless.  They've crafted gifts and are planning a Treasure Hunt -- the pot o' gold at the end of the rainbow.

I'm incredibly grateful for my warm home, the love of family, the view I have of the sunrise this morning, and spaces of connection.

NOON THOUGHTS:  Super fun morning celebrating Hub's BD.  The girls did a great job with decorations and gifts.  Downside was our little one not feeling great. She seemed feverish to me, but registered normal. A bit of a cough.  Keeping a close eye on her since finding out a parent of a child at her preschool has tested positive for Covid 19.

I'm unsure if my intermittent shortness of breath is COVID-related or another anxiety attack.  Tense times.

I'm letting the girls have some screen time this afternoon; I've had to relent and tell them, "OK my TV really does get channels other than 'boring news shows'.

NIGHT THOUGHTS:   Watched primary results tonight. Looks like another sweep for Biden.  Maybe politics will feel relevant to me again soon.  For now I'm still trying to wrap my head and heart around our new normal of staying home and/or away from people...and sanitizing/washing more than I thought possible!  Grateful for social media outreach and encouragement while navigating these uncharted waters.

At least, that's the view from here...©