3.27.20 NIGHT THOUGHTS: Well, the sad truth is that I'm not doing enough. My perfectionist self generally feels this way. When I'm told to "do your best" I always assume I could do better with a bit more knowledge, effort, training, brain transplant...
I've been feeling this pressure for a long time around the political disaster we are living through and that I am personally responsible because I didn't doorbell enough, call enough legislators, send enough postcards, convince enough friends, send enough money.
And now I'm not even able to do enough to enhance my "physical distancing" life. My FB feed and email notifications have gone from doom and gloom over politics to uplift and enrich while staying home.
Zoom is everywhere! Zoom free concerts, poetry readings, book groups, church services, gatherings with friends and family!
Meditation teachers are eager for me to meditate more and for free! Yoga opportunities at home abound!
Exercise classes want to be sure I stay fit in my seclusion -- lower body work outs, upper body workouts, weights, stretches, aerobics.
Educational opportunities are now plentiful with free and reduced price online classes on all manner of subjects.
I'm asked to put a Teddy Bear in my window for kids to spot as they walk by on family outings; decorate my door with hearts to join in Hearts in a Window effort to show love for our community; bang pots and pans in the front yard to thank health care workers; put up Christmas lights or decorate my porch to delight the neighbors.
And clutter bust my house, organize my photos, get at that hobby I've always wanted to have time to do, grow my own food, cook it, catch up on every show on every network and platform, listen to some new podcasts, read, read, read.
I know everyone is just trying to help and I truly appreciate the urge, but only in America can we take the horror of a pandemic, tell people to stay home and chill, then be sure to overwhelm them with a long leisure time "to do" list. HAHAHA
At least, that's the view from here...©
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You are doing SO much better than I am. But we all know you are notoriously hard on yourself.
ReplyDeleteI've been noticing a lot of chalk art on the sidewalks in my neighborhood, with lots of upbeat messages. Very nice!!!!
Oddly the days fly by and I don't feel like I am "doing" much at all. I am working to be content with that. I notice too all the uplifting messages I see. I hope we can retain that spirit when this is resolved.
DeleteNailed it. Crazy!!! What a great post for posterity. I'd like to copy and paste it (with your name on it, of course, into my notebook! We are enough!
ReplyDeletePlease feel free to share, Renee. Thanks for remembering to credit the author. :)
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